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Hope

Hope. Hope is a funny thing these days, We basically all have hope but how often is it that we actually believe in that hope, i can certainly say that for the past few years my hope has been down the drain metaphorically speaking, Ive been very down depressed and had the odd few suicidal tendencies but i always seem to bounce back, i just cant stop looking for that silver lining, and for once it actually seems to have come with a positive, as anyone who has ready my previous blogs would know things have not been great for me at all, from struggle-some past to debts and of cause my transition and thats where things start to look positive now. After a long time waiting i finally had my second review and the doctor has confirmed my diagnosis of Gender Dysphoria and has given their consent on giving the second opinion and referring me to the next stage in my transition. They was a bit worried about my past issues and how they may affect me combined with the struggles i may go through d
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Trying to turn things around

Trying to turn things around. Ok, so my bad fortune these past Ten plus years has been bad indeed and i find myself in the situation mentioned below but i still keep trying to fight the good fight and find a good reason to BE. So the first thing i always try to do to improve my morale is to find some way of earning some small cash on the side, now being TG often does not help especially when the transition is going so slowly, but there are things out there its just finding those things. I thought i had found a way of earning small amounts of cash every day or every other day on a site and app called Clickworker, but that has so far turned out to be incredibly fake and have currently stopped using it for the time being as it seems i am not receiving the payments from it, now it says that any amount in the payable section will be paid each week on a Thursday to PayPal account, ok i thought that was reasonable but then i decided to test it and racked up a small 1euro 80cent, an
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Living on Benefits in 2017

Living on Benefits in 2017 A lot of people seem to think that other people being on benefits is all out of pure laziness in not wanting to find a job and such, well let me say just a few things right there. first up yes some people on JSA are probably just lazing about not really trying to seek a job, others meanwhile may be on befits for reasons such as disability, severe mental health etc. i for example am on Employment Support Allowance for a fair few years now, ok so yeah the name makes it sound like it is for those working and maybe on low wages or something and while i believe some can get it for that reason but will be low rate, the major reason is the inability to work, before being on it i did work, I did not have the best of grades thanks to being kicked out from moms twice and moving schools several times during GCSEs which caused serious drops in grades as some courses were not available at one school that were at the other school, and then there was being in hospi
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Pre-Transition

From the moment I "began my new life" I knew I would use it as a chance to start my "transition" i had done some research over many years finding out how to go about things. So upon moving to a new area I decided I would slowly start to augment the "living in role" aspect into my life and not so slowly began collecting bits of clothing, within a few months of moving into a shared property I had already developed a fair amount of ladies clothing, accessories and items, but knowing I was exactly the most feminine looking I began slowly adapting. I started by just wearing underwear (bra knickers/thong and girls socks) slowly I began to get confident enough like this that I started wearing other parts of clothing such as trousers, tops and jumpers that were a little less obvious, but implementing a slightly more feminine look every time I felt comfortable enough with where I had got to. (Publicly) During this time I was also trying to convince my doctor to ref
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Coming Out

I hate the term "Coming Out" but in many cases it was very true for me, for just over 20 years I had hidden aspects of my life from people even those closest to me. When I began my "New Life" I decided I would "come out" but it would be much harder as I no longer lived near anyone and had to rely on social media something of which I am actually not much of a fan of in the first place. I decided to let it out in steps and see how people would take things. My first step was to announce to people I was infact Bi, I had made key to announce as Bi-Curious and then after another few months and some shall we say experimenting I announced I was Bi-Sexual, during this time I had also gathered a few friends in my new life and decided to try telling them first, they said if I was going to tell them about being bi they knew and were accepting of this a similar reaction to what most other people had said but I took my time and finally announced to them that I "may
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